i love you but how you dont love me

everything in this life that we live is a lie excepted my love for you its the only thing in this world you can believe in only if i could tell you let alone show you but god know how would you react n plus i already know what you would say ,you'll say i like you alot n i care about you but we cant be right know ,i have a man n i love him ,even though we have to work things out but you'll always be my friend,n im not prepared to hear that, so ill just sit back n keep my mouth shut n deal with you being hurt,but what makes it worst ,is that it hurts me as well cuz you no how i feel about you,but love dont give a fuck about what you see or how that person treat em,love is selfish,i dont think i wana love if i cant have you,since the first time i seen you,the first time we had a convo,i know you was the one ,i no you felt it to ,wen i made you smile n the words we exchange, you had to feel what we could be,but i guess i was the only one in tuned with our chemistry,only if you could understand how much this is hurting me ,to write down damn i feel like a sad clown,