me n my ex writing

such pretty eyes you say..i love you goodbye were the last things you said. A pain consuming me...it kills me..i ache..my body numb...u stole my love. thief you are..Liar you are...heartbreaker you are...the undertaker of love n souls you are, wen u left that hopeful day ,now i sit here sad crying n hateful , but i still blame myself 4 this,mayb u was right about wat u told me wen u left me ,even so if u really loved me u would stuck it threw , so was it love or lust lust you say. never love..im over it. now alone and lost like a puppy without its owner or mother...my tears speak more for me than i could ever speak for myself. tell me what should i do. my heart tells me to keeping loving the beautiful person who is filled with lust...a poison deadly as love itself lies mayb the cause of the deadly poison of love but i couldnt tell what was lies i was so blind all i could c was the fake truth of a loving person ,my heart bleeds as my wrist like the pretty eyes with the devils lies..bleeding. he bounds me with a curse of eternal pain. never really having someone to love and share a bond stronger than rubber bands wore around my wrists for you. once lost...i shed tears for it..i felt we were over forever..then i found it..as destiny said it to be. why did you break it...not physically but emotionally..tell me cuz relationships shall never rewind but i guess she moved on ,left me,siting here thinkin wat should i write ,wounderin if its good enof u could come back to me but it never does, i guess its left all behind its never left behind. loves shows us things. and maybe we wont understand at the moment..but they come in handy later..when love is true and pure like clear skies and the crisp smell of autumn. i love you. thats the truth. but who am i to tell you who to love. its over...goodbye..

binge 3 is she the reason my short version

head hurt no one to talk to, watever bouta go smoke da rest of dis loosie, nah fuck that rest of my lucy cuz shes da only one who calms me, she loves me even tho shes killin me, slowly, but shit i love it pryin 4 death from her, so hopefully she could take my breath away, sitting alone in the dark stair way, my mind goin bac in time reminiscing about fuckin in bellville park, on that cold night it was dark, but the moon light was shinein all over ur love u lovein me n im lovein u, but in the end u forgot me, wonder if u do still think about me , but i know u know i still think of u, rather of we, shit only in jersey is the place where heart can bleed, but im talkin to the day of yesterday, sadly im livein in da past, but its my mind, da only past where i can get away, even tho its full of bad memories, but the pain keeps me goin, cuz i feel it the end for me, u could believe me or not but its watever, i talk to my self in the mirror n this what it contemplate, the mind of a winner ,but a soul without hope

im a waste of life n this is no poem it wat really hap -_- fuck it right

well i jus found out i might not get my diploma after the schools dont know what im talking about -_- they like call tomore but is no guarantee like if not this whole thing was a waste of time ,then mother spaze out n i can take her bull shit no more so i spaze out she think she have the right to jus b like fuck u bitch nah yo i dont do shit to her too come to me like that im tryin hard not to beat this bitch ass so im like yo wtf i do to u she still cursein me out n talkin bout get out her face she like fuck u we havent talked in a month like yo wtf i have to talk to dis bitch about this bitch fucked up my school shit liein for 5months that she got the shit i need to graduate i had to get this dont b 4 they changed everything up lol n now they did so im like yo damn right i aint talk to u u lied for 5 months now im fucked they sayin she like she dont give a fuck i dont care about u n u not coming with me wen i move like wtf i spaze out more im like wtf i did to u y u hate me im not ur other kids who do u dirty shit i no u dont want me here so wtf im suppose to do she like i dont care n im like yo i have no money i cant get a job cuz u did god nows with my birth certificate n my social shit no I.D like u need dat shit to get one im callin the place to get my social n birth shit n they like im not in da system ur moms got fix this so wtf im suppose to do like u actin like like dez other ni99as that have idea n not tryin to do nothin with my life she like she dont give a fuck im like yoo wtf u had me shoulda got a fuckin abortion i dont wana b here shit ni99a u brung me here so im in da room fuckin shit up lol n my boy stop me from hitten her ass wen it started but yo i dont get it i been kicked out to many times im tryin to do right n nobody care they on sum str8 fuck u n im been loyal to everyone n all i done 4 ppl n im dont get nothing in return they jus want me to b nothin family fake friends girl friends its like y i get mad hate but ppl who dont want nothing nobody judge them yo i dont no wat im gona do i have no friends now n no fam gona let me stay with them -_- so i dont no if sumone do help me out like how ima get my info to work my father m.i.a haha my life yoo i dont wat ive done 4 ppl to hate me all my life but yo i dont really care thinkin bout jus dealin with it go sleep in da park n start hustlein again but yo i gota get in touch with ni99as 4 dat but watever yo i mines well end it who really gona care idk but watever no one no bout this blog lol no body gona find this but watever duces mayb i get luck ether way i b iight

ade n tesca poem num2...Broken

My heart, she aches for the love it once knew... the echos of pain, radiate into my eyes, and as they fill, my only thought is your smiling face, which i'll never see again.the only face thats my eyes see's is my sad refection, broken memories tatted on my face, with no expression, the mirrors cracks n the face in the mirror smiles n says with ists smiling lips and crying eyes whispers "gone, gone, she will never return to my embrace, never feel the warmth of her kisses" touching his lips, he shutters to the memory, her last momory.her last memory was in my head lil did i know i was smiling i was happy once again no thorts of isolation or suicide it was like taking my first breath again but as quick as it came it was being pushed out my right ear by the last memory of pain the words she said to me the look upon her face the hate n tears inflicted in her eyes the sound of her voice n the way she breathed was so shameful i couldnt bare to listen to the reflection in the mirror... it broke... liike on that fateful night, my fist connected to the mirror like her eyes connected with my heart... this pain is no where near as bad as the throbbing of my head. the ever-constant aching she left behind her... left for me to handle, alone... once again.

another vent dont pay it no mind

i have to get bak in to my zone on doin wait i have to do cuz i dont have time to waste sitin in this house with ppl i hate isnt workin i cant b around ppl it makes me want to harm them ,wish i could b more isolated then i already am.but soon ill b things wiill fall n break its jus life tryin to make u suicidal or insane im very close to both right now but im not gona let it take over once again all i have is my mind n my musik even tho most r dead n others will never know of me.but i will get passed this 7 years of bad luck jus hopein it dont continue on cuz i dont no wat els can i learn only thing i need to learn about is trust n being happy even tho from a young age i knew i'll b alone untrustful n sad 4 this planet ,i cant b numb nomore i left weed alone dont like how it feels im to broke fro pillz n cigs -_- so i guess i have to deal with shit 2 year the weed helped me threw shit n then a year of pillz n cigs n the liquor i got chillin in class buzzed out my mind no eatin n jus on my grind tryin to do it without all dat but anxiety kickin in again n taking ppl bs in is not heplin but i will do it i guess only got a couple of days to write n post my poems instead of venting but i will try Done4NOw

venting

this cant b life,the shit i been threw has been hell,nothings getting better ,every ones weak,i can take this any more,i wish death over n over,its not coming if there is a god,he jus wants me to live in suffering,i dont even know wat to believe,i dont knows wats real ,growing up in this world n the telling u are giving,being told to b righteous,dont sin,b loyal,treat ppl how u want to b treated never push away ur fell,always help man,b a caring person,it was all a lie all evil,i dont have much time left,i cant take these humans,i cant take it i swear ima end it,i have no more pills to keep me numb,i dont smoke anymore,jus loosies hoping every pull i take wil kill me sooner,cant trust family have no friend,im jus a waste of life, i want to die but god wont take,sick of seeing they ppl who loves life n theres get cut off,wishing everday why couldnt i take there place,wishing i had a person to jus sit in a cemetery n write n breath in the list of the forgoten askin questions about life n wait could i do to releave this sorrow , wishing n pryin that there is a god that could help,stop the killings the poor the weak the devils but no he doent come jus let things happen,i can wait till its all over i could b free,4ever feel no pain,i hate everything a bout i hate everything about this planet only death n hell i c ,n im slowly turnin to them that i hate but i realy not jus alone like the Shepperd walkin the earth tryin to nunderstand n help ppl with wat i learn n remember from the past life,i dont know how long i have in this world, everything is coming to a end,y ppl cant c this r they rhis blind or im jus crazy,starting to sleep less again n i ready to end this cuz god hates m the devil hates me more,so y im feeling like i shoulda ended it 2 years ago wen i wrote my suicide letter,am im weak for thinkin like this mayb i am but wat can i do, i been quite for years n still noone wana here me speak im still the crazy wierd kid that everyone hates n wana fuck up my life more,i hate missing the ppl ive loved,they onlky hate me they never new wat love was its jus a word n its sad im the only one who knows wat real love is,im falling away from this world everyday, n soon ill b gone n i pry one person remebers me but thats a myth it will never happen n ill always b alone ether way so wat to do,idk but i dont have time left cuz life is tellin me it doesnt want me

those who refused to kneel

i am not childish but im alone, some ppl are afraid to die alone, im not im afraid to die unknown,some ppl looks up to god,but in the end,they are goin to hell,i looks 4 the answer to this journey,but im told ill go to hell,life pulls me down,rather the ppl i come incontact with pulls me down,but im waiting for this earth to flood,to wash away the lies

the strive of living

m sick of my life n how it sucks like a bitch with fat lips ,aint that a bitch? ,everyone got 2 steps ahead of me ,even tho im more intune with humanity ,i been tryin to spark the torch with a wet match ,feelin like im in a death match with life,every punch i make, stab i take nothing showin me that i can survive the strive of living but ima,make it happen one way or another

falling into this world

i have fallen to this earth with the pain of death given to me by my maker missing the past life i was living missing the angels i left behind hating u hating the fact u brought me to this earth gota start over gota learn wats the right way to live in this place growing up learnig wats lies n truth a place where u grow up with family telling u how to b a good citizen to b a good human lapdog for big brother rather god followin a book of made up storys n lies why do i live in this place why am i faling here is this hell since im falling from heaven i dont know plz tel me

dont give a fuck jus had to vent alil i swear i hate ppl

life life life life death death death death ,wat is up with u takein my heart,leavein me here bleedin from my chest, tryin to speak to u but only gargles of blood cover words pour from my unwritten emotion face , you took everything from me my strength my brain my thorts my guts,left me hear a empty vessel numb to love n happiness but still have the emotion of pain only pain pain jus pain nothing more ,so im preparing to dieeeeeeeeeee jus dieeeeeeeeeee but im takein u will meeeeeeeeeeeeee so if u dont want to cum with me dont bother meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee death death death -_- is the only thing i see but i know it aint worth it cuz u wont give a fuck u keep me alive to torcher me i fuckin hate u plus all the others that came n go u jus another bitchs thats added to da list i shouldnt give a fuck but i do so this is y i hate myself wishin i can drop dead cuz i cant take the pain but im kinda glad u gone but ill never b the same when ur gone

Tesca Moore freestyle about her ex lol shorty awesome

your a stupid mother fucker, i hate how you get under my skin. no matter what i say i can never ever win.as you get closer to me i can feel the hate, your piping other bitches, as you get closer to me i can feel the hate, you seriously need to back the fuck off, you got to many snitches, your still coming on strong, but i knew this all along, your jack-ass attitude and made this seem ll wrong, you want to fuck all my friends, but want to pipe me too, nuh uh we dont play that shit, its only me you gotta be true to.and as you see im broken down, mm mm we got no time, you want to play this crap with me, but im cutting you off like this rhyme

the endddd ;D lamee >.<

the last nights rememberance of a soul

im looking ahead seeing nothing, only you are in my eyes ur essence is takeing over my soul to the point i still taste our kisses my lips are tingling with the sensation, my hands still feel your body under mine i still feel ur heart beat as i lay, i think about the day wen we first made love lips against lips, flesh against naked flesh, my body hungers for yours one last time as i ponder i wonder if that last chance will ever come again , hopein pleading ill get another chance at something so sweet that a god would end the world to have again you at my side, we can rule the world, ur hand in mine, our fingers curled, there aint no shit that we cant do ,as long as im here touching u but only if i was touching you now the cigarette smoke is forming to the shape of ur hand touchin my face with the gentle breeze that blown in when u left out that door so alone thinkin thorts of ending everything i hear you footsteps in the hall, but its only the will of my mind, i hear the voices call, but its only the ones of the broken hearted dead hearted like the loveless zombies that walk this earth, from never having the real feeling of love ,lost souls like i that cut there wrist from the cold hearts,only existing from the hate and sadness of the world, so we float lost tryin to find heaven, but all we have to look forward is our dark grave site

lyrical teachers

two plus two equal f.o.u.r,now dont let me kick down your door n start teaching you like a college professor of quantum physics but nah im keep it strictly lyrics,showing you black holes n why the reason your human race is only considered a type zero planet,it becuz wack MC's like you, get eatin like retarded white kids chewin on glue,so plz u know its true remember back in the days of 92 me n u was chillin outside of skool i,was kickin freestyles resiting the word that ur god gave me tellin u y u got kicked out of heaven bcuz Jesus aint die on the 7th

sacrifice scribble MC's

blessing u with these rhymes thats so true, ull believe i was...the fountain of youth,can u believe, the only weed i smoke taste like glue,me n u are like da same tool, u sacrifice newborns with my sharp edge remember u the hand that holds it 2, im only kill newborns when scribble jam dj's tell me go get em,savage like what the whiteman said about my ppl ni99a we lethal like lithium