another vent dont pay it no mind

i have to get bak in to my zone on doin wait i have to do cuz i dont have time to waste sitin in this house with ppl i hate isnt workin i cant b around ppl it makes me want to harm them ,wish i could b more isolated then i already am.but soon ill b things wiill fall n break its jus life tryin to make u suicidal or insane im very close to both right now but im not gona let it take over once again all i have is my mind n my musik even tho most r dead n others will never know of me.but i will get passed this 7 years of bad luck jus hopein it dont continue on cuz i dont no wat els can i learn only thing i need to learn about is trust n being happy even tho from a young age i knew i'll b alone untrustful n sad 4 this planet ,i cant b numb nomore i left weed alone dont like how it feels im to broke fro pillz n cigs -_- so i guess i have to deal with shit 2 year the weed helped me threw shit n then a year of pillz n cigs n the liquor i got chillin in class buzzed out my mind no eatin n jus on my grind tryin to do it without all dat but anxiety kickin in again n taking ppl bs in is not heplin but i will do it i guess only got a couple of days to write n post my poems instead of venting but i will try Done4NOw